Dark times

I weighted 390.2 now and I tried to ride my Haro Extreme mountain bike. I only rode it about 25 yards when the rear tire blew out. I blamed my weight and even through I am sure that did not help the real problem was that the tires were at least 10 years old and had just gone bad. I could tell even by my very short ride that I was not going to be able to ride this bike either. I bought new tires for it and up them on then I hung it back up and there it has stayed. At this point I gave up on being able to ride again and it was a very dark time for me.